So after a failed long term relationship and then two failed attempts with two ‘wonderful’ people to get to that 'In Relationship' status on Facebook, you would think I would just give up, but do I? Of course not!
With most things in life that we fail at time after time, we usually come to the conclusion that we are not good at it and do the dignified thing and give up, but for some reason when it comes to finding that one special relationship I just can't seem to let it lie.
I have spent so many Saturday nights howling with laughter at Simon Cowell telling yet another cat-strangling-singing-hopeful who believes they have a talent to give up their dream of a career in pop only for them to turn up at the following 2 years auditions, when in fact in my own special way I'm doing the same thing month after month, admittedly I'm not doing it on National TV but nonetheless the audience is still embarrassingly large. My work-colleagues find the tales especially amusing and are more than happy to lend their ear, to the latest tales of love that I have managed to embroil myself in, maybe in writing them down, I can prevent my life become the spectacle it seems to be turning into for the people surrounding me.
And I have come to wonder, how many others are the same? Are a large majority of us on this same search, suffering the same set backs again and again without ever giving up?
And will I in fact actually throw the towel in one day and accept that I can actually be happy alone?
They say you won’t ever find your true love until you stop looking, and from observing others around me it does seem to be for the most part true. But try as I can to stop looking, I only ever end up ‘not looking’ in order to find The One, so in reality I haven’t really stopped looking at all, which defeats the whole purpose. So I’m caught in a catch22 and unless I prove the saying wrong or reach the enlightening state of singledom happiness it seems I may just end up dying trying.
So here begins a record of what will no doubt be the many lows and hopefully one or more highs of my solution to or my dying trying Looking for Love in London….